Sunway Lagoon

This trip made my shoulder and face sun burn. So painful now when bath or wash my face. But i think it worth it!!! With the water massage, my shoulder was really more relax now. Mayb im stressed all the while. Syok!!! Lets see some pictures for my outing...


Using high tech locker...by pressing pw and locker number without any key, but this fucking thing cant function when i want to leave..fuck!!!





































Erm...looking forward for the next visit...there are three more parks which i cant enter. Promised with my buddy will acc him enter scream park next round...zzz

Another outing

This weekend i suppose i would be damn lonely and not in the mood in anything. I thought i would just hide in the house think my thing alone. In fact, outing would make a person happy, be it temporary or last long. At least the moment you wont think of others.

Really appreciate those friends who accompany in this weekend who release my emotional changes recently. First day went for sing k where i shouted out all my bad feelings. Another day which is today,i went here (refer pic below) for an outing. Its exhausting and make myself so tired even typing this blog. Feeling like paying to torture ourselves. I walked more than play in it. TOo many acid lactic accumulated in my muscles ady. (in short muscle pain) lol





Recalled bk my last visit should be form 3 or at most form 4. 7 years till now, my another visit change my feeling, i played alots of things which i not dare to play when i was in secondary school. Mayb i really need a channel to shoot out my bad feelings, i jsut push myself to participate all exciting features hopefully that will temporary pull it out from my mind. It success!!! Ya, feeling better...

Besides can see alot of bikiny gals, we saw someone hugging and kissing in the public as well. I asked one of the girls, r u jealous of it? R u longing for it? Happenly, she told me that ya she was lonely and she hope can find one as well.. Haha... for me ya its so envious. One of my friends who has a bf right now will think of bring his bf here to play once again. Since it really quite suits couple as many thing need in two.

Ok..i promise to my future gf, i will definitely bring you here to have a great memory!!! LOL!!! Tired ady, photo upload in few days time...

Night!! Sweet dream for me!!! Really really thanks for those who around me this 2 days... Love you al...muacks!!!

Red-Box

I love to sing k. I always wish to go K-room to sing. Why huh? People will say me like not shy to ask for singing since my voice is not good as well.. Even can use horrible to describe. So why? I dunno last time, i just wanna go...

But today i knew why!! Finally i know why i like to sing even with some unknown friends. Today i joined my colleague from another division of finance. 7 of us, i just knew 2 of them where one is the guy that i mention before. (my ex colleague) I participated openly without thinking any thing, coz i need some channel to release myself.

The profound of K-room is singing can bring out your feeling. Your emotion will linked to the music and you will follow the tone. When you sing old songs,your mood back to the oldies will recall back some memories, when you sing hitz songs, your mood is shooting up high, and when you sing some love songs, if you do have relationship, you will be leading by it as well. Thats so strange and powerful.

I remembered last time one of my sing-mates tell me:"Eh y u sing so sentimentally?"

I just replied:" Just to match with the song."

Today i think i not really match with the song, but it did bring out my own feelings and released in singing. Even though my emotion is low but when i sing some rocks song, my mood cheered up ady. The last song was "Zombie" which i shouted so loud.

Another good point of singing is i can shout in the room where no people will scold you or laugh at you, if you sing nicely they thought you really good at it, if turns out bad, they just thought u wanna create the atmosphere only.Wakaka

For singing, free for date, call 012-5651887 @ 016-5151275.

p/s: photos will be uploaded next week as i din bring my own camera, i have to transfer from my colleague on monday.

Be smart guys

From long time ago, i already was the type of person 日久生情, although i still enjoy the feeling of 一见钟情but how often it is likely to happen on me such a beast? I told my buddies i wont take a flower, holding chocolates, kneeing down to pour my love. I would prefer the type of naturally started, just one side to take the initiative to start.

OF coz, if i was a girl, i enjoy the feeling of being wooed by others. Who doesnt like gifts? Who doesnt like sweet words? However does this last long? Most of the girls would criticize me as no romance. But romance last long? i dont like temporary things!!! i like eternal.

Lets say, you successfully found a creative guy who always give you surprises, but will it last long? His idea bank will die out one day, and he in order to make you happy will squeeze his brain just to see you smiling. Would you prefer this? Thats no right or wrong answers. Some still prefer this way. Why dont get someone always k for you and love you? I would take all this at the expense of what so call surprises and romance. Those useless fucking things!!!!!

So, if i woo a gal but i cant oweis beside her then there is no point. You will break one day due to some issue which you might not have seen it so soon. The feeling is really so insecure and you will crumpled one day. You will gonna be crazy due to this. For distance love, you can hold it for sometime, coz still will have the bu she de feeling, but once either side found someone beside which can treat him/her as good as your partner, then why not i choose a nearer one? right? Dun say bout confidence on each other, its a need. Evi ppl needs someone be around when they are down, when they need help, when they boring....

So guys, find someone near you, find someone who really loves you and k for you as well as appreciate what you did. Dun ever put urself in a low position. You can change your destiny!!!!

Mental Power

Finally, i understand why doctors and professionals will always say that keep your mind happy and you will be healthier. Mental is really a high influential issue. Just like in those dramas when people paralyzed or coma, their will power is the strongest determining factor.

By controlling your physical why not controlling your mind? I feel the impact of mental power. When i was in bad mood or even no mood, i will never feel hungry and i just lost my appetite. For those who had having meal with me, should be know my portion for each meal. I can stand for more than 6 hours not eating due to my emotional changes.

Ever tried whole night insomnia or cant sleep for whatever reason, the next day also very fresh in mind? You are tired, you are sleepy, but your mind is keep on functioning, non stop. I cant sleep yesterday, and today was my first day to work, i yawned, i 'cried' but my mind still very clear. I think once your brain connected of logged to something not settle and your brain will be stuck there keep on running until you exhausted. The feeling is not really nice sometimes. I ate my lunch at 1 something without topping up rice. I ate my dinner at 9 without feeling any hunger. Even i went for dinner, i din have the appetite. I walked lonely along the street so slow like a tortoise, letting the 'fresh' air pumps in. Anyway, whatever matters, time will be the best remedy.

I always tell my mom that dun ever carry all the things to herself. Try to put down some burden, release some stress out. I just like a 'dr' 能医不自医。Something happen to be important to you, which you k very much, you really cant put them down so easily just like wake up from a dream. Positively it will consistently motivate you, but if it turns out to be negative, it haunts you and it sucks!!!!

They are old

Long time never been with my parents for so long and going here and there taking care of them. Starting from Saturday, a day before my convocation, until the next monday. Recalling the last time i been to family trip was my Form 2, when my brother still haven fight with my dad.

Surprisingly, i din quarrel with my dad throughout the week but there must be some beh song situation but still ok. Acceptable. Understood that he is old to chance, and whatever i can bear, i will take it. No matter how he still my father.

Throughout this whole week, i watched them closely. My dad no longer can stand long while waiting. However he can walk very fast when going anywhere. He just cant stand stil. Just a few minutes he started to locate some place to sit. If there was none around, he will just sit on the floor. In airport boarding gate, the seats were full and he just sat at the corridor. When my mom mumbled him why always finding place to sit, he will tell u this:" Sitting is always better than standing, laying is always better than sitting." Why suffer yourself? Speechless.

To my mom now, her emaciation make her looks older. She limped when walking. Walking slow at behind. Of coz i will wait for her, but the pain that i feel is just like somebody stabbing my heart with a sharp knife. Feel so touched thinking that she walked all these while along the way just to raise us, my siblings. I knew she was really really very happy when she can see my convocation and my sister's wedding.

They are old, their physical is not as strong as their younger age. I have to take my time to earn more money to treat them better. At least no need to worry about their sons and daughter. Although the chinese saying says: 养儿一百岁，长忧99。

"My" New Hse

Hehe, think that i have a new house so young? Theoretically why not? Cant i have a new house at my age by my hand? Practically, ya i cant, i not afford to have such a nice house right now....but why i use 'my' hse? Coz its my sister house and thr is whr i live if i was in singapore next time. haha!!! (dunno she welcome me anot) This is why i been here in Singapore for a week.

Lets look through the outlook of the building:


Taking out from master room.


playground


carpark

The time for interior design which i really likes it so much. Although the house is small but it is sufficient enough for a small family. I contented if i had one. cant imagine my sister have the sense of art as well. Self design the house.


living room


living room facing the kitchen


will hide the wire soon as now still testing stage. quite high tech one...using apple mini, can online, browse net, and watch tv all in one thg... walao eh....


kitchen


study room. my sister break one of the room and cut it half for study room. personally i like this room so much. Inside just like so canggih and the feel is nice. Got wireless technology for the whole house..


wireless


master bedroom. (all the wardrobe is make and measure type)


toilet. (just like the feel in hotel except not spacious)



My dad so happy with it and showing off to others that he gave 90% for the house. Saying that entering this house is just like feeling so warm and nice which he dun wan to leave the house. Wan him stay hol day also willing. BEsides the location really a bit ulu, i think i quite satisfy with it and i hope i can have such sense of art for my future house...need to learn from now and start save some money...build a warm and nice family with my lou po zai sin...see who is the victim..haha

Finally!!! I did it!!!!! Yeah!!

Recalling last year, i typed a post looking forward to my own convo, and very soon, its all over ady. It just like happened so fast.

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Heard a funny conversation:

'Mom, i suffered for three years all the way just to wait for this moment.'

'Daughter, i suffered for 24 years also wait for this moment.'

(zzz)

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A picture worth a thousand words:


Daddy


Mommy (the color match right?)


Jie Jie


Family

Must be wondering why no gor gor geh? Sad to note that, he was not able to make it because he was forced to stay in HK a day before my convocation due to a 8 typhoon at HK. He wasted 1k for the airfare and i was quite disappointed but thats not his fault. :(

One man show time:









I purposely took this picture in front the main entrance just feeling like i walked out from this university with honours. I successfully pass all the evaluation. But those very 'ng sing muk' ppl said that:"It just like someone coming out from jail." Fuck!!!

Suffered for 3 years, waiting in the hall for 3 hours, just for these 3 seconds. 3 shots:


I knew i look so sozai, but coz i dun wan to waste the 3 seconds on stage, i say thank you while looking to the camera, if not wasted money and three years coz cant c my face....haha














Part of my coursemates


part of my ex-housemates


Lovely junior




He is super senior and he helped me alot.....


These are what i got for this convocation....:p

Am I CURSED for the convocation ceremony?

The same event for last year, i went for my senior convocation as a token of appreciation of helping me alot throughout my life in Sabah, at least from academic perspective. Last year, i had an eye infection and it made me looks so horrible with something swelling in my eye. Fuck!!!!



This year, finally is my convocation, but there was something else on my face again. Why i cant look good in any convocation? Am i destinied to be so? I just have it once in a life time, how come the god wanna treat me so cruel? Zits on my nose and face!!!!! Grh!!!!!!!!

Upcoming Post

p/s: currently in singapore, will try to upload pics soon

wahaha

HAPPY CONVO-ING

Buddies

I always stick to my buddies for every time i back to my hometown. Be it more or just few people, be it only chatting or playing games, i feel nothing special and just i still have some companion. They always talk nonsense, tease each other, tear off people faces, make people embarrassed but all these are for fun and jokes. I know they din mean it.

Some of the times, they still will be concerning each other, maybe not during all being there for gathering, but the time when you and him only. They did utter words of concern and they notice your act, your emotional changes and your mood. Whatever you did, they know.

For those who read my earlier post, i am troubled by something else, something not really easy to put down or let go which still strikes my head and heart. It just like a fire bolt striking into my body and my body burnt!!!!

When i am in such kind of situation, i still go out wif my buddies, i still chat wif thm, i still go cyber wif thm, and i try to act normally. (sometimes its hard to cover up your emotion) However, this time the feeling was totally different even though they stil do the same things, still talking craps!!! But the feeling is so warm and near to me. it is something very familiar to me that i can hold it, i can feel it. Feeling like when be with them, really can temporarily forget all the sadness.

Needles to tell them your problem, needles to show them my face, but in fact they warmed my heart. Something really weird right? How cum recently i can hv such deep thoughts in my writing? something going wrong wif me......haha

You guys, brilliant man!!!!

My last day

In fact, it was not really my last day. However officially today was my last day as an intern. I completed the whole training and break for two weeks before joining PRU as permanent staff. Normally, anyone will think that last day definitely less thing to do or even no. However since long time ago, my boss didn't treat me as trainee but permanent. Same with my team members. Although they cant thoroughly pass me their task but they pass it over part by part.

Yesterday, i was so dare to leave office sharp at 5.15pm even i haven finish my job, but i know i can finish it by tomorrow (which is the deadline since is my last day).

She asked me:"You leave now? Are you sure you can finish by tomorrow?"

"Ya, i think i can, since thats just minor editing on the template and add in commentary."

"How bout the scorecard?"

"You haven pass me the data."

"But you can do the template first right? Then tomorrow you can just fill in the values."

<<<<>>>>>>>

I chose the latter one. I dunno how she feel, but definitely she really disappointed with my decision.

Today during noon, she IM me and said that this monthly reporting task is for me to do in future for every month, you wont be so free like now, be prepared to work late when you back as permanent. (I dunno whether am i sensitive or what, feel like she emphasizing on the last part)

Well, so today as my last day i decide to stay late until finish the stuff for her. Just right at 5pm, i submitted my work with the hope that there are miracle to go home earlier.

She asked:" So are you going bk on time today?"

"Err, not really, can stay."

"OOO means you prepared to stay ya??"

"haha, ya, help you finish the stuff first ma."

"Then when you wanna back?"

"Not fix, anytime."

"Ok, since you say so, i will fully utilize you."

Edition and addition coming ady, this need change, this need add and compile some other files. Shit...how can i finish it in just few hours time? I started not to talk crap ady, i started to concentrate on my work. Non stop for 4 hours, i finish the thing. I left office at ard 9pm.

How come my last day like this? Was this a signal or phenomenon that reflecting my future life? Ya in fact i ady prepared so....Although i cant claim OT for now due to my trainee status, i will just treat it as did a charity for PRU.

What a 'memorable' last day........

Yew Bong

He not an artist, not singer not any famous ppl. Just an ordinary fresh graduate from Um and he is my first buddy since my working life. However i just able be with him for a total of 6 weeks.

Why?

A good question.

All the problems can be easily explained by one term: >>>>>>> MONEY

He get a better offer from another company, of course with higher pay. He tendered his resignation on his 11th day of working in Prudential. What a shock for me. The same day, i submitted my resume to apply for permanent.

All these days, he is the one be with me always, chat wif me, since we are free sometimes and he just sit beside me. Through the same language, same age, same interest, we talk alot of things, we eat togeder but not shit and slp togeder of course. I was so honored that i was the only one that he told ppl whr will him b going. And as a return i did tell him my things as well. (cant say as return sumtimes) just feel comfortable to chat wif.

Today his last day, haiz....who gonna acc me go for cheap food during lunch? who can acc me go pantry when i sien? who can listen to my nonsense? nobody, hoping my boss can hire another guy like him thn sure i can be motivated bk...lol

I will miss ur days in prudential with me.. All the best in ur future ya!!!! Gambate..

p/s: this post specially dedicated for u, so u shud treat me meal after u get ur first pay..haha

5.15pm

When i saw this post, i do really feel exactly the same as if i was the one she was mentioning.

Since i was an intern, i was not liable for working OT as i get no pay for that. I always tease those colleagues (of course with close relatiohsip), they are ineffective and thats why every night have to stay. Miss C said nothing but just one:"i will see how effective you are when you were a permanent."

2 months here, i was just tried once to work overtime, (even later then Miss C).All my colleagues said that i've to used to this life. Its a matter of now or after. Miss C, hapily IM me in the intranet saying:"wahaha, its the first time i can back earlier than u!!!"

Oh fuck!!! What if the rest of my life would be like that? Pity!! So as long as i stil hold the name of trainee or intern (whatever), i will fully enjoy to the fullest. At least, i have no obligation to finish all the thing as they not dare to pass me important task as well. No ppl can bear the responsibilities. LOL. Eviday sharp 5.15pm, u can c my buttock off the chair heading the front door. starting from 4.30pm, (for damn free period) i will find sumbdy to chat in pantry, until 5pm.

Dun ever think that i will start working after 5, coz 5.15 coming soon. take another 5 mins to the washroom, 5 mins to pack my things and clear my table, sharp 5.15 'pit'!!!

One day, the secretary of the finance department passed by and she saw me leaving really sharp. She stared at me, saying loud, wah, you guys really cum sharp and leave sharp, cant even sit a bit longer. OMG, i feel so guilty and i was stunned for few seconds dunno how to respond. Luckily another guy leave togeder wif me, he said yes to her. At least somebdy say sumthg. Why he dare to say so? Coz he leaving soon at that tie. today is his last day. But i think she is just kidding and wanna have a fool on us. Normally she wont be so serious one..... So i hapily leave..wakaka

Everytime i leave, i also not dare to say goodbye to evi one, unless he or she is looking at me, then sure i will. Once, i sent email to my boss at 5.15pm and i run quickly since he was on the phone. I dunno whether my work got problem anot, but i not dare to look at him worrying that he might ask me stay back to edit the work. untill the next day, i check my mail din have any edit request,i release a sigh of relief. phew!!!

be cool!!!

Another moody day of mine, being so silent in the office, being so ‘diam’ in connection with my colleagues. Normally, even if I was so busy I still will IM (instant messaging through intranet) others. But yesterday and today, I din. I totally silenced by my mood.

My colleague from another team dated me for lunch today and trying to enlighten my day. We went for TGI Friday and I sat at the window side. I was looking outside just like being stunned and without talking anything. The first response from them was: “Are there any lenglui outside?” (as I always talk bout gals with them, till they say that beside gals I hv no topic..zzzzzzzz)

“Nola, just wondering something cannot ge meh? Cant I be quiet?”

“You thinking sumthg regarding your work or what? Are you busy with you work? Since you work OT starting last night and today you were so busy to IM me?”

“(Attempting to tell a lie) Ya, thinking of work. ES (my boss) gave me something to do which I hardly figure out until now and have to submit soon after lunch time.”

“You wont, as what we know you so far, you wont think your work stuff until so serious. Must be sumthg else.” (cant I be serious on my work? )

“Then what you think?”

“Man is just worrying bout two things, money and gals.”

Another colleague: “ well, man worry bout money also coz of gals, so at the final just worry bout gals..” (zzzz…speechles)

Since they kept bugging me on this, I just try to be as usual of mine. I tried to talk craps as usual but with my serious face and hence it turns out another type of humor. (I suppose) However, after I started to talk more (im teasing them), they prompted me with:

“Ok fine. You better keep with you serious style by looking outside the window and silent. You look better without talking and you are so cool.”

Ok so now, I decided not to talk crap ady, since im more attractive in cool mode, I will be so. Hopefully can cover my not handsomeness and have a chance to attract some lenglui flirt with me.. zzzzz

p/s:

1)thz for the concern msg after work from Miss C. glad you din really treat me as an entertainment. Haha (kidding)

2) sry to Miss T for bugging you. in fact i just wanna spread out some of my anger. I din mad at u. haha

EQ

How can we manage our emotion well? Izit really so easy to control our mood and emotion? And the answer is no.

Today im not in the mood for work. I was troubled by something over which brings down my mood. Dun ask me what and why, just dun wanna tell as that's not the point I wanna point out.

Today when I was working, my mind was just cant concentrate at all. Due to some uneasiness of my body, it aggravated the situation. When the thing is in rush, at the same time your mind cant function properly, that's really suffer!!! It was being worse when my stupid pc working out so slow and keep on hanging for calculation in large spreadsheet. I cant save my file everytime as it consists of too many external links. I was so stupid not to break the links or copy out as values. Redo and redo, looking at the time nearer to off soon, but I din hv the intention to leave. Just wanna have sumthg to do so as I wont think of my trouble thg.

When the time of I wanna redo my thg, I just wish I can scream or smash on the pc. But I know I cant do so.. I just kept on sighing and having a black face. My team members even asked me what am I doing and I looks like so stress. Zzzz

So am I high in EQ since I can control it and swallow it or it consider as low since I let it conquer my mind and lost my rationale in normal times ? I don't know. But I do agree doing serious thing in such a mood would affect your work badly. Never and never!!!