Untidy House

3 years before, my house once appeared as the picture shown below for the first day i moved into my new house over sabah. Now, totally the reverse situation. It was untidy but now is packing but not unpacking. Its time to go back to my hometown. Nothing should be left over here anymore.

So happy she can pack things...








This was my first time picking the boxes thrown beside the shops. I felt a bit paiseh as i just like the cleaner......zzzz


Just pack for 2 or 3 boxes, its really tired. It is a good exercise. We have to go through many process before sending the parcel. First packed into a plastic bag, then arrange nicely in the box. Secondly, wrapped the box with tape and thridly with another layer of 'oil paper' . Final stage is to tied the box with nylon string. You see how tired was my housemate.

Nostalgia

Haiz....another sad post again. Time is getting nearer and nearer now and small act can actually recall me many things about the past. Since the day, i bought my airticket to fly home, i din hv much feeling on my apart. Am i cold hearted or what? In fact, it just haven released out from my deep inner self. When this day, my housemate was leaving soon, she asked for photo session even with the neighbour 'ah po' and some photos in front of our house.

I started to be nostalgia. Some kind of memories are crawling up my mind. I looked at the hose, a home that i lived for 3 years, a home where i experience my 'overseas' life, a home that keep me going for 3 years. I seemed to be a bit 'bu she de'.





Crazy Teng


My house......


My 烈火战车...


and the ah po beside





This ah po is very so geng.....She know hakka, hokkien, malay, just dunno mandarin and cantonese. A s2b idiot like me.....who doesn't know hakka and hokkien, the only way communicate wif her is malay. And i feel so paiseh speaking malay wif her.... Tats y evitime, if i need find ahpo, or need her help, i will ask for her to be the middle'gal'.. coz thy can chat so fluent and hapily.....

Proof>>>

春夏秋冬(4 seasons)

Its bout to the end of my sabah life. And thats the same for the days with my housemate for 3 years.....Although we talk less to each other for some, but at least we will still concern each other......Hence, we were having a farewell, since 6 of us will be leaving Sabah and another 2 will stay back for another one year.

Its a steamboat buffet style.......







Hunting for food.....haha




eh jason....take a snapshot first....dun so eager to eat....






There were many sauces available here......which i dunno how to choose......


It not under promotion price, you have to pay the price listed here according to the colour of the container you picked....damn expensive ...


OUr dessert....honey dew sago...nice!!!!!


but how cum got coins inside?? zzzzz


After eat all the food, cant breath...too full....c my big stomach.....zz


Personally like this pic, with miao as the photographer and hong as the director, instructing me for how many degrees, how far from the lens, how to pose, and so on....lol

废话连篇

就要毕业了，有少少百感交集。虽然我不是那么的喜欢沙巴的生活，但无论如何，我在这边也是有属于我自己的回忆，而这些回忆我是不可能在别处找得到的。甜酸苦辣，样样齐。想起这3年来，与我渡过大学生涯的朋友，每个将要各散东西，不舍得的时他们而不是沙巴。别问我为什么不喜欢这里，没什么特别原因，就如你喜欢你的另一半，没有原因的。

今天我找我的讲师签名，当然也有一些朋友在场。他对我们说，我们将不再是学生了，每样事情都得想过才行动。动动自己的脑筋，而不要再依赖别人了。听完了，也真有少少恐惧感，我再也不能那么粗心大意，不能再那么懒惰，得过且过。我长大了，我们需要为自己做过的事情负责，承担。

做工的朋友说读书好，读书的朋友却说做工好，那么到底什么是最好呢？我想选择那一个。读书有读书的压力，做工也一样。人生是不可能完美的。没有了这些磨练，我们的人生还有那么的精彩与回味无穷吗？虽然平淡是福，但白粥太清淡也不会好吃吧？

真想回到从前，那个天真无邪的生活。没有烦恼，不用负责，不用选择，想怎样就怎样。现在呢，随着年龄的增长，需要烦恼的事情就开始累积了。就连最简单的吃什么，也得自己想，自己安排，对吗？换作以前在家的我们，妈妈住什么就吃什么，哪用我们想呢？复杂的也许是你的未来，我们的路该要怎么走？而哪一条路是我们最向往，也不会后悔的呢？我到现在也不能百分百确定。

除此之外，其他复杂的问题例如朋友，家人，学业，上司，感情，人与人之间的情感，真的是多不胜数。感叹地说一句：“有又烦，没有又烦。”（当然不是止于感情上）所以呢，做人真的要懂得学会放下。喜欢这段歌词：“命里有时，终须有；命里无时，莫强求。”是你的，不用抢，也是你的。不是你的，又有什么意思呢？一切一切看得太重，只会将一吨吨的石头往心里压。只要尝试过，问心无愧，那就听天由命吧！你不能改变世界，但你能适应你自己。我们都是能屈能伸的好汉子。但这些日子，我都坚持着一样东西。给点时间吧，我能克服与将它放下的。杠再身上，真的有点喘不过气！！！

很多时候，我都将自己最内心的一切都保留，从不会告诉别人，或是问他们意见。是不能相信他们吗？也许。别人的眼中我有很多朋友，但是海内知己又有多少个呢？如果找不到能明你的人，对他们说也没意思。是我太封闭自己吗？我不知道。也许我再等待一个能明我的女朋友，分享我的一切。

各散东西后，还会有联络吗？在我眼中，事在人为吧？有心哪怕天涯海角都不能将心灵分开的。朋友们多保重哦！！

Is KF still safe?

Erm..... KF - Kingfisher.... Not the bird which hunt for fish, but is my living place over Sabah here. Recently i heard many negative news happened in my living place. Is it still a place for us to stay? Although im graduating soon and i wont bk to this area to live. However, there are still friends who stay here, there are juniors....(n pretty girls)

The latest heat news was abduction and assault to a second year UMS students at KF. (details)

and the result was : here
Once the case happened, the forum on UMS stuff updated so soon to keep others updated. So many people giving comments and start worrying to stay in KF.

Forum: here

Besides this case, more and more people discussing about KF. The condition, the cases, security, and so on.....(click here)

Before this case, there were maniacs in KF. (which i only know when i surfing the forum for UMS. (here)

In fact, i do love their comments and discussions. Some are so funny till die. Really suffocated by it. LOL.

Today was my first paper and definitely, i will be struggling night before. However, the SESB gave me a good present. Once i back from school library, there was an electrical outage over the state of Sabah. It last for around 5 hours to resume the supply. What a nice experience.... Many UMS students going out to KK to study at those with generator electrical supply such as food court, hypermarket, and some even airport. I cant imagine that whole KK was under the situation and KK was in darness. When i reached KK, there were no traffic lights. The traffic was massive. All the cars was stuck in the middle of the road. Even police car cant reached to them. Haiz, anyway an experience for me.....

(ref, forum)

ME Night

Since this is the last year i will be in UMS and be with my coursemates, my pretty coursemate organized this ME night for third year students to enjoy and relax themselves after a busy life. (although the busy life haven end so soon, but just as a petrol station to recharge) The place is same with my previous post. (ACE lounge)

This neither a formal night or informal night. The organizer set a restriction is good as well which is girls must wear skirts and boys cannot wear t-shirts. Thats a good idea for boys right? At least he mayb can see sumthg? (kidding) It just to see how my coursemates looks like after make up. They were different then normal days that i saw.













And before the night ended, i let ppl do 9 me......I was chosen as prom king with another girl.... Haiz..Only let ppl play jek...since im not handsome.....zzz



Last but not least, thanks to the organizer.

Middle Man??

Some of the girls like to learn about horoscope and quite dependent on it. Even for those who are not depending on it, will still believe it. However when i read about my own horoscope attributes, i just found half of it will be true. Other commented that maybe im in the border line of two horoscope, hence i have both the characteristics.

Lets see the email that i received:

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)
> Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to.Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

> LIBRA - The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct 22)
> Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

p/s: those bold and italic are the characteristics that i feel i posses.


Any disagree? Or i possesses more of them? LOL.....

我不懂！！！

很久没有写华语的部落格，懂的人也许知道那又是问题爆发的时候了。这次又为了什么呢？

人与人之间的感情真的是那么的脆弱吗？别人的三言两语就这样动摇了多年的信任。Myfm 时常听到一个广告，

“老师在白板上画了一个黑点，问同学他们看到什么？同学们都异口同声的说一个黑点。老师说还有呢？那么大的白板就看不见，只看到一个黑点吗？我不知道你们明不明白当中的意义是什么但我自己却很懂。”

讨厌双面人，讨厌造谣者，讨厌不诚实的故事，讨厌那些摆出一个事不关己的样子。当初的谈话，变成了今天的筹码。他们已忘记了他们也有参与，而现在却若无其事的与别人讨论当初。现在他们已变成聆听者而不是参与者。一切一切都只是我的错。只因他们对当初的谈话有所保留。只讲事实的一半，那另一半呢？就让别人猜好了。幸运的话别人会分析，不幸运的话，那就得看你的造化了。对事情一知半解，加上主观因素，而妄下定论，是否有点鲁莽与不公平呢？ 随波逐流，是每个人都会有的态度，理性分析通常都是后期，后来，后面，后悔的时候才会派上用场的。真好笑！！

有些人会把别人的事当作是笑话，如果当事人不介意那也不是什么大问题，但问题是那是事实吗？主角真的是这样的想法吗？市这样的语气吗？开心就好嘛。。。。。。没错，但是否那开心不应该建筑在别人的痛苦上呢？我不否认我做过类似事情，但我懂是我的错也愿意接受改变。当然我的却很希望别人能批评我，有时我还会反驳，但不代表我不明白。如果我有错那就更正卧吧，不是诅咒我。对不？

很喜欢朋友的一句话：“懂你的人不需要你的解释，不懂你的人解释再多也没用。“ 没错呀，为什么那么执著呢？要让全世界都懂你是不可能的，只能自叹一句：”问心无愧”。 所谓的公说公有理，婆说婆有理，让你赢了，真的是赢吗？不是！！！ 有别人不相信你的一刻开始，你已输了。你赢了只是眼前的事物而不是长久的感情。就算距离与你最近的也未必是最懂你的。然而他却极有可能是最不了解你的人，而盲目的跟随别人的意见与想法。


没错，我真的输了。我赢不了。谣言止于智者，但我并不是那位智者。我只是一位平凡人。最平凡不过了。在这事件中，我学会了祸从口出，说者无意，听者有心呀。以后还是少说为妙。而且也学会了不要自以为是，我也需检讨自己。怪他们吗？也不会，只是有点感慨。

最后的3个星期，真的要有遗憾的结束吗？我不知道。当然我希望能快乐的毕业，而不是现在的心情。就这样原封不动吗？但我也找不到我能改进这结局的更佳方案。只有默默地等待，默默地希望什么也没发生过。

“别有幽愁暗恨生，此时无声胜有声, (白居易 《琵琶行》，元和十年）”

IQ test

Last weekend, i went out with my coursemates for K-box, dinner and movie. Once, they talked about IQ and EQ.. Frankly speaking i told them that my IQ shown in the internet test, was jsut 60 sumthg or 50 sumthg. I never thought of one statement popped up from them.

" Your IQ is in that range then means that you are an idiot? (bak qi) "

I replied them that:" I just have no patience in asnwering so many boring and mental power consuiming questions and i just simply skipped....."

Okok...no argue then. I took the test seriously this time, although i proved that im not a bak qi... but i'm from those groups that with low IQ... Im a stupid person. Haiz!!!!!

Gang Bang-ed (cont'd)

The first part of my gang-bang experience is after my last year birthday..Today 3/April is the second part of it. Where it is regarding my project two, the data analyzing part of my project.

This time having the same old folk in my panel, he is the one who i fear of. His 'ah pek' look really kills me. And im so happy that my co-supervisor is in the same panel which i hope that somebody will support me if get shot. Unfortunately, she told me that during my session, she was unable to turn up and i was left with me alone facing the experts. Another panel which i neglected since my first semester, i never thought that she was the one asked me most question in the presentation time. Yeah, you really changed my impression on you but just a slightly increase. At least i know your knowledge is not zero......

Finally, i think im still in the condition to carry on my work but just that i am damn slpy but i have to prepare my test one tml. All my coursemates took the test during cny and me is taking the repeat exaxm. How pity am i. Thats the opportunity cost of having much fun in cny. Haihz!!!!!!!

Anyway, im glad that all is over. The thing left is all about writing, format, and so on. So gambate n +u to all my coursemates!!!!!! yoyo!!!