When?

When i started to be so helpless?

When i started to be sleepless?

When i started to be no confident?

When i started to be exasperated?

When i started to be so desultoriness?

All started during my third year...All started when i have to deal with thesis....All started when i have to deal with the old folk. The old folk is taking revenge of his students day on us.

When piles of works stacking on my shoulder where I dont know what I need to do..... i feel helpless...

When things not finish and the deadline is due..or when i finished a job with lots of uncertainties... i sleepless

When my work being corrected for n times, i repeated the assignments for few times, i feel no more confident. Whatever i do is wrong in my mindset....

When i cant do anything to improve the situation, when i dont understand the whole fucking topic, i feel exasperated.

When i finish those big projects, my mood and emotion is dropping from peak to the lowest point....Whatever i do is wrong then why i should do? ...thats the reason for being desultoriness.

Before submitting the final draft of my thesis, i describe the feeling at the time with my friends. In my opinion the best situation is when woman giving birth.

You have to give birth but u scare of pain. (U need the thesis to graduate but u worry bout the troublesome process). Then you gave birth ady, n you worry bout him/her. (When i finish the thesis, binding all ready, i started to worry whether there will be some mistakes in it? )

2 months seems short. However, the coming 2 months is the slowest period that i been through. When will be my convo? Or i refine my question... can i convo? ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God Damn It!!!!!!!!