GB

What the meaning of GB? Good Boy?? Gigabyte? Great Britain? Or Good Bye? All wrong. If you do play games, you will often heard about Gang Bang.

For a vivid example, in dota, when you are being attacked for more than one heros, then you are being gang bang-ed. For online games, when you are facing the MVP, you are being gang bang-ed with the small monster around. The taste of gang band or being gang bang-ed is different. You found yourself so happy if you successfully gang bang a hero (means kill it). However teh other way round, if you are the one being gang bang-ed, you will only able to say one word. --------------->>>>>>>>>>>> DIU!!!!!!

This coming Monday, it is my turn being gang bang-ed. Not in dota, not in games. It is in academic field. There is no other alternatives for choosing gangbang or be the one gang bang-ed. Im the only one being shot, being tortured, being torn, being killed. Not using weapon, not using cannon, not using bomb, but using words of mouth. Thats a dreadful weapon in the world. It can determine the country dead of life.

No need to think so much, actually it is just my viva for project I and there will be four panel in one room. I will be presented my work in 10 minutes and Q&A for 5 minutes. (normally more than that) If im presenting to my own supervisor, of course i wont be so afraid of, however now i haven know who are the panel for my room. Among the lecturers in my course, there are 2 people that i fear the most as they are the experts in statistic. Im doing a new thing which i never learn it before except reading by my own. The prof would definitely ask bout the details of the method and that is the thing i fear the most. I know what is it, i know how to run in SPSS, i know what it is all about. Haihz................

You can see this phrase in primary school to encourage the children: "Practice makes perfect". In my case, it is not a matter of practicing anot. I play dota and im the one who always being gang bang-ed. I know the taste of being the victim. Haihz, even during my birthday i have to prepare for my viva and no time to rest. Hopefully i still have the mood to spend the Mooncake Festival on Tuesday. If my body still complete.

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22/09/07
3.09am

SI Unit

SI unit is the international standardized unit for measurement. For example weight is g, pressure is Pa and so on. Im not sure whether am i right for the two examples mentioned. However i would like to find in the 'dictionary' of SI standards, what is the unit for mood? How can we measure it?

Some will say very good mood, or no mood. SO how high the mood u have and how low the mood you getting with? IT is so virtual and unpredictable. Of course it can be influenced by external factors and internal factors. External factors might be seeing or receiving thgs u dislike. Or even simply ur fren'ss action, or ur fren's word will bring your mood to the abyss? Internal factors might be pressure, boringness and so on.And the moment of writing this post, i dunno wat is the level of my mood.

The interesting part is during my daily life, my mood can fluctuate dramatically. I can be very crazy and very down for no reason. When Im crazy, i will go around and kacau people. I will say nonsense, talk something that i understand but others not. I will sing, i will cant sit still. However, when im down, i will not bother whoever talking to me. I will react so cold to them. No wonder what is the matter they want to talk to me. When the mood is dropped, it is hard to pull it up to the normal level.

Recently, all the people around me also have a fluctuation function of the mood. Never never kacau them without any reason. AS i will get scolded or shot innocently. Piles of assignments and works are coming. It is impossible to have a harmonize among lecturers on giving works, but then it is possible for them to assign works simultaneously. And this often have a high probability.

Mood ar Mood, where are you, can you accompany all the times? Dunno what im doing now and dun even noe wat i wan to do as well!!!!!

Crap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Side of ME

Looking at the time now- 1.31am. In fact, it is still young and most of the students haven sleep at this time. However, the point is what if you wake from 8 something and non-stop working for more than 16 hours? From your eyes, im a pig who can sleep more than 12 hours. Instead i can make it on working as well.

I had been experienced 3 days 2 nights camp where just sleep a total of few hours. However it just a type of physical exhausted. For now, it just for 16 hours, im mentally collapsed. I have no idea on what im doing. I just like a zombie without any human characteristic. Im walking in the air. Friday night i slept at 2am but the exact time that i fell asleep would be longer then that time. Today morning, i start up with group discussion on entrepreneurship for my business plan. Since i have less determination staying in my own room to do stuff, i choose to finish my part directly today at my friend's house.

At around 3pm, i finished my part. However there is another assignment in store for me. Complex Variables Calculus. I spent few hours on it jsut to solve one simple integration equation and it is in vein. I have no idea on proceeding to solve it. I surrender to it. It conquered me!!!!!!!!!! I was beaten down.

Just a rest for during my dinner, washing time, my housemate dated me to library 24 hours study room. Well, since i would study far less than there, i chose to go. Within that 4 hours in the room, i glanced through 12 chapters. in ur eyes, you might think that:"wow, so crazy can read so many chapters!!!" The fact is? i cant even understand a chapter, and skip and skip and skip and skip. I read 450++ pages. Incredible..

The conclusion is that, besides the business plan, i do nothing today but wasted 10 hours just like that. unable to solve equation, unable to understand syllabus, how can i score in this semester?

My neck is so pain now...... My eyes are dropping already, plus the fucking infection in my eyes which aggravated my pain and tiredness.......Although i never believe in God, but God, please show your mercy, bless me!!!!!! Thanks, your blessing will be much appreciated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alleluyah!!!! Amithaba!!!

written on 9/9
1.47am

Nice song!!!

Listen to the first clip before the other one!!!

People's convo but not mine!!!!!

Three years being at UMS, this was the first time i went to the convocation. NO any special reason for this year,just to pay a visit to my closest senior who help me all over here during her stay. Finally she had to leave and will you be happy for letting one pretty gal like her to go? LOL!!!



Every year i just pass by the canselor hall without entering to attend it. I will think when will be my convo? Now im at final year stage, im around the canselor hall, im looking at so many graduates wearing the blouse with the rectangular cap. Seems i am so near the graduation date but once i think so, i will recall my dissertation. It is still in a mess. thinking back all the course i hv to pass this semester. Im getting worried and feel the graduation is far from me!!!!! Who can tell me when is my convo? ARH!!!!!!!!




And who will be attending my convo? Will my family members all around? Or just will be my parents? Still with a question mark. zzZzzZzZzzz

So happy are she!!